Toward the Unknown

What a phrase!
  Worthy of praise…
    Tell it to my face!
      How it’s hard to do in my case…

I have always been a hard person to get along. Even when every fraction of a second is spent alongside me. Each passing minute is a battle to defeat my other selves. Every maneuver thwarted.. Every effort rendered useless… This is not a battle that I can easily win. This might not be a war in which victory is an option! But even then, sometimes me proved to be my most stalwart ally. And in the end, I hope I can understand… Thank you self….

Jakarta,
June 18th, 2005

Sometimes, the biggest wonder of life can be seen if only you would take time to turn your sight to your side.. At other times, we have to take it longer.. But ofttimes we did not even have the time to turn our heads..

Amongst the turmoil in our hectic everyday lives I sometimes wonder, where does the heart goes yonder?

People’s change. Sometimes it was for the best, and sometimes it was the opposite.. But it is true that opposites attract each other…. Is it? The longer I travel down my pathway of life, simplicity just simply turn into…. unsimpleness… Pardon the language there…

But again, here I am at another crossroads of life.. Taking a time to sit down…inhale…exhale… Word by word…. Letter by letter…. No, this isn’t a very good opening song… I haven’t been a good composer too lately… This has been a hard composition to sing… But in the end, perhaps I’ll just have to put another ‘Coda’….. And then I feel it again, saying….. Do or do not….There is no try…

Jakarta, June 15th, 2005